Blog getting more and more emo.

Well alone in hall on good friday.. due to some stupid test tml morning.. it's really sad.. if not i could have gone home yesterday... hai.. fna project not done.. no mood to do now also.. hai..

hmm.. i feel i am going thru what i have went thru during poly yr 3.. the feeling is back again.. it's really not a good feeling.. kind of down.. although knowing myself it will just take maybe 2-3 hrs to pick myself up and be my old cheerful self again.. but then that's avoiding the problem..

sometimes problem should be faced not avoided.. coz it just wun go away.. it's always there.. the last time i solved this problem.. the ending wasn't too good.. maybe that's why i am avoiding it now that it comes up again.. the situation is really SOoOOSOSOooOSOSOSOSOSOS similar... maybe the difference is i am older now.. got more to think about.. and can't just do watever i like and dun care about people around me.. it's nt going to work that way now.. it's the feeling of helplessness and in no postion to say anything that's erm making me pek ceng of myself i guess...

sometimes i feel that i am just very fake.. 明明就不喜欢 still smile smile, ok lor.. nvm la.. =D yawns.. 根本就是在为别人而活。 but well that's just me..

telling myself not to think so much will help for a few hrs and it will set in again... well well maybe i am just a trouble maker that strive on creating problems for myself and people around me..

yawns i am getting so negative.. this is bad ahahaha... i'm just ermm typing things out coz i'm really sian i would say.. not till the extend of depress.. i wun allow myself to be depress over ANYTHING... i hope.. haha...

seriously typing all these out makes me feel better and the good part is nobody know wat i'm talking about.. hahahha.. sorry to those who read my blog and try to make sense out of it.. coz there is no sense in this post.. it's just a post for me to anyhow type out wat i wanna say and keep going going going....

有时候人真的很奇怪为什么明明就不开心还要去委屈自己。做好人也有一个极限的嘛。难道静静不吭声就是解决问题的最好方法吗？这样子迟早被人给吃掉，死了都不知道为什么。受了委屈就应该说出来，把它锁在心房里也是于事无补。

haha post in chinese sia... SO COOL